When we are attached to passions and want them, but we also want divine grace, then a terrible conflict occurs within us...
"When God manifests His grace, and we are not ready to receive it, because of our passions, evil can happen to us, because a split appears in us. Divine grace seeks what is sublime, while passions bring us down. In the case when we are attached to passions and want them, but we also want divine grace, then a terrible conflict occurs within us. In this way, divine grace does not approach, because it loves us and wants us to preserve our balance and our freedom. But, when we have mild intentions, then divine grace comes!"
St. Porphyry Kavsokalyvit